Fate likes to meddle with our lives.

Well after so long, i am pretty much back to blogging here, have not gotten mood to blog much about theories of life until i get some sort of feeling.

Everyone seems to be posted to their colleges and polytechnics, some extremely happy with our posting, some remain unchanged and some just felt unfair over what they are getting. Its like we are kind of stuck inside the choices that we have and wished something would change it. change it like somewhere we could be with our friends, somewhere we can enjoy and we believe we can enjoy our life in college…

Just maybe…that wish never come true. at least for most of us….

Sometimes we just blame over System that send us to our college, some blame their results and millions of reasons we can come out with to throw the blame over the place to send us into a place we wish we would never belong at. think about it, perhaps, fate just wanna meddle us. 

I believe fate aint something that controls us, not like because we are just not meant to be friends thus fate brought us apart. We all have choices and fate are just paths we choose, yet we never know where it leads. It likes to bring us to unpredicted places. Maybe a place where it cause us to eat our own hearts out, or maybe its a place where we wished we would be able to stay forever. There will always be a reason why certain events would occurs and events that are meant to happen on us, no matter where we go. 

We always blamed why fate lead us to certain things. Think about it, if not because fate has brought you to today, where would you be?

 

Piece number 12 – The Right thing to do may not be the good afterall, at least to other people.

Think about this.
When something bad is done, the only conclusion that people come out with is for that person own advantage and to destroy and harm things.
however when good deed is done, Millions of conclusion appears where as making a good deed no longer good as its just another way of doing things to bring things to their advantage, even when a good deed is done with the purest heart of kindness.

Is it that we are just thinking too much or rather, Some things are just too good to be true? If this is true, this would prove why ignorance is a bliss in this world. Perhaps its time for us to think less, do more. perhaps when we start to accepting things as it is than thinking of any ultimate motive behind whatever. When that happens. Perhaps there is no longer motive behind any actions we done. Perhaps, this world will be a better place to be in.

 

Pieces number 11 – When you lose something. its impossible to replace it.

Its like when u have that u will always cherish. and poof. u somehow lost it or spoiled it, Perhaps its like going back to the same stall and buy back the same item. Is it really that simple? its like. sometime, its not so simple. Certain things perhaps bought with a great friend of yours. the memories are no longer there. it is something new. its just when u are given a book to write and when u write the same story for 100 times. I doubt they will be exactly be the same but. as long they are just slightly different. the point is , They are still different.

This Would also include friendships and relationships. No matter how much u do to try and do things to just react the past. nothing will remain the same. Perhaps once a friendship is broken, even when its repaired, Its not going to be the same ever again. Sometimes, people would go, ” certain friendship just can’t be broken. no matter what is done. It still would remain in 1 piece. no broken. just no closed. Just imagine. even when the friendship is rebuilt. Would it be the same again. Its just like something is broken. No matter what u do, it still broken.

Perhaps. its just another curse of life which prevents us to reliving back to past.

 

Pieces number 10 – Memories that we wish to relive in.

Every Sec 4s are leaving their secondary schools now, Including those from primary 6s and J2, and even grads. 

I wonder would i miss the friends and the stupid things we do in school, where out there, nothing will be the same again. No more huggings! Awww.. hahah alright.

Pretty sure, everyone would miss life in their old school, even me. Those days where we can throw those vulgarites at each other without offending each other, Where fights only last for seconds. and even moments we get thrown to the pool and get blamed for things we didnt do. Lastly the precious relationships we made with friends and teachers. 

Its not just schools, there are moments are just so sweet or bitter that we cannot forget, First love, First rejection… First crush, First break up, Places where we meet the one for us, moments where the love ones leave us.

We always wish to remain in this moments. Some accepted the fact that we cant and moved on. Some remain in their timeline. Some just stood there, in denial of the truth they are facing.

Reality is cruel, we cant expect everyone to remain the same. Things change. its like the blessing of humans and the curse we wish it would disappear. We look into the eyes of friends, wishing to find the same person we first met. We look into the eyes of the one we once love, wishing to find the same person that treats us as if we were the only one in the universe. 

But one thing would always remain the same. the memories we have of each other. something we cant forget. Maybe one maybe a enemy or just a person where our roads would never cross, but in our mind we know, perhaps that someone was once a friend. someone that would be there for us.

There we sit at the grassland, looking at shooting stars, wishing to a place where our memories are relived and revived

 

Piece number 9 – So.. are you happy now?

Sounds like a typical question that you will hear it everywhere.

So.. Answer it. Are you actually happy now? Studying like mad for certificates like O levels and A levels. If I chose to be a psycho and just do sadist things to make myself happy. I won’t mind. First thing first, I ain’t a psycho, but I would rather do that than just sitting here trying to do things I feel have no purpose in my life. Its actually that simple. I ain’t happy in life.

 

Everyone feels that way sometime. Its like we do things for the sake of WE HAVE TO DO IT. So where’s the happiness in life? With all the stress, hates, and every other negative happening like the financial crisis, Where is the happiness we should be seeking for? 

 

I have chose a job that I want to be in forever and ever, no matter what. I have chose to be a happy man. Sounds easy, in this world. That is just impossible. it’s the dream of everyone, but no one has the qualification to be one forever. ( the keyword here is forever )

 

So lets see everyone is getting stress up at period, so, answer this question.

 

Are you happy now?

 

Bits of work -EL compo practice

Special post Need to study for el thus shall post all my work here. rate me scold me. I need all the comment i can get.

Maturity. Topic suggested by Jue ying LOL.

“I am old enough to decide for myself! Stop making decisions for me! I know what i am doing and what i want!” I screamed at the woman who brought me up and made every single decision in my life, and that woman was none other than my mother.Knowing that it was pointless to argue with her, I ran up the stairs and slammed my bedroom door with all my strength.

Since young, I always being controlled by my mother. She makes every single decision for me, such as the secondary school i should go to, she mapped out my entire future, the friends i have and now my choice of going to polytechnic and junior college. I was like a puppet under her grasp, controlling my every move, as if i had no mind of my own and she always thinks that decision she makes is always right and the best for me. 

I screamed into the pillow again and again. The overwhelmed anger I felt invoked a sense of sadness that i kept in me, and tears fell the next instant. I know myself that I am matured enough to make my own decisions and I do not need my mother bossing me around and making every critical decision in life. I knew my interest lies in art and design, not in things that my mother wants me to study like medicine. I felt I need to make my own decisions and I decided it was time for me to leave this house. I knew in my heart, this ‘place’ was more of a prison than a heartwarming home to me. I need to get away and find the paradise of mine, somewhere i would be happy in. I took out my haversack and stuffed all the clothes into the bag and took all the savings i had. I knew this is a one-way road and I was ready to take endure the consequences of my decision for the greater good, my future and my happiness.

I waited in my room impatiently till the time where everyone would be in their dreams, i slowly opened the bedroom door and sneaked toward the doors to freedom. Just when the doors of freedom was within reach. i heard my mother sobbing in her room. In my heart, I knew the reasons why she was crying. At that very second, I realized that by the choice i just made, and the way i reacted earlier, just proved to me i wasn’t as mature as i thought.

 

Piece number 7 – Perhaps losing indeed is realising.

This statement is just so true.

We never realise certain things. the significance of certain things. simple things like going to school. get screwed up and ending up in the principal. falling in love with the prettiest gal or prince charming yet realise the other is just beside you. Its just weird how human have finally realised certain things are just too much and too important to us.

I gotta admint one thing. I lost myself. any understanding to myself is just i dunno. gone perhaps.

You lose a friend, you understand the pain of losing someone that understands you. You lose a lover, you miss the feelings of being love and loving. You lose a brother or sister, its just like cutting a piece of you.

I missed the old days. with carol, alex and sean. even though it was the worst of my life where i have no idea to go, A time where everything seems to be falling apart. yet the feeling of these friends around you. Something that is impossible to be describe.

I realised alot about life. perhaps i just lost that much in life.
Losing love make someone stronger and learn to love even more, wanting to cherish this precious point of life.
Losing friendship make someone want to keep other friendship as close as possible because he/she wish not to feel the pain once again
Losing kinship make you treasure the memories you have with the person. its just like losing you memories. just more painful.

Perhaps its just because of one thing in life we always thought.

everything is for granted… at least until that point….

Cheer up. lets take this way. the point someone takes something away from you. something will be returned to you no matter what.

P.S. This is specially delicated to jasmine tan. Cheer up! =)

 

Piece number 6 – Childrens are the ones that sees the whole picture.

Sounds stupid, due to the typical sentence said by almost all parents, ” Adult matter , children will never understand “

To my understanding. Children sees way more than what we see. We Adults always been in a denial to millions of things, its just something we hate about children, the facts they say, are actually the truth and yet, they are the truth we wish not to accept.

One reason is that they are open-minded, Something like their doors of belief is still open, something that we have all lost. We have our own beliefs, and these are the things that cause us to avoid certain truth. We would move away from bits and pieces of things that seems have no significance but is important for us to see the big picture

Its not they do not understand what on earth in going on, but they still in the belief of ” world is happy place and peace rule the land ” thinking. This is till the day they step out from their fantasy, and actually view how cruel human and the world is, causing their doors of belief to close and learn more about the world. thus closing the open mindset they have. They do not have the words and experience to explain what it is. The simple term they use seems stupid and naive but these are the part we miss out in life. We think too much in life.

Yet, the door that closed on our beliefs, its the door of innocence.

 

Bits – Laughter indeed is the best medicine.

Yes finally, i remembered what i want to post about.

I just read an article about using laughter to fight stress.

Laughter works two ways, both medically and mentally, Yes. it is scientific proven laughter helps to fight against diseases. It improves our immune system, allow us to take in more oxygen, thus lowering BP. These goes on and on. Then we should laugh more.

 

Piece 5 – Taking all the pain and sorrow don’t make you great.

I used to have this thought. In fact friends i met recently know always have this thought.

” I rather myself get hurt than others get hurt, at least they are safe from the pain “

Sounds great, Sounds like god, Sounds like the greatest person that is willing to give its life out to the world, to everyone that need it, Live for others, thats what my school always teach, or is it?

People would feel they are the greatest person on earth, the person that will give the most of their life to people, like the utimate being of the world there to help and become the next savior of world!

Result? You won’t get a thank you from anyone, you wouldn’t help people to bring away from pain, but end up, You hurt the people around that care, you will gain the pain and hurt that you earned, all u will just get a empty soul. in fact in blunt words, its just a call for help and sympathy, thats what i learn, and the only way i can say.

thats pretty much i am going say,

Sometimes, being nice is good, protecting people is good, but before u can go around protecting and loving people around you, Learn to love yourself, thats the most important.